It's Good To Talk

I love adverts (commercials). I love clever adverts, not the annoying ones like 'Go Compare' or that really annoying 'Webuyanycar.com' one either, I mean the ones like 'Comparethemeerkat.com' or the new 'Yell'/'Yellow Pages' one with the modern day J R Hartley. My favourites though are the ones that tell a story, like the Nescafe ones where the woman met the guy and the romance blossomed or even the BT adds where the story has continued now to them expecting a child together. I liked the old BT adds too, the 'It's good to talk' ones; "Oh so you have an 'ology' now..." always made me giggle and think "ooh thats gonna be me soon".
Oh how times have changed but these sentiments are still true today.




I still believe that 'It's good to talk' even though I am partial to keeping alot of things to myself however I did find it difficult to deal with things because I had all this pent up frustration and I didn't think anyone was listening to me. That is until I started emailing a friend, a friend I never knew I had until we emailed each other one day after I broke down in front of him and spilled everything I was feeling. We emailed back and forth for several months, he became my mentor and a good friend and he saved me from the black hole I was falling into at the time.
I changed things in my life instead of emptying it. I organised things around my life instead of organising my life around other commitments or things I could never have thought of getting out of before and all because I talked to someone who was able to see that it wasnt that no one was listening to me, it was that I wasn't talking to anyone and I am a much better and stronger person because of my email friend and for that I am eternally greatful. I will never be able to repay him for his help and his patience and I only wish there were more people in the world like him, so if he happens to be reading this blog...thank you, I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for you.

Jenny Anydots

Currently I am watching 'Cats' - The Andrew Lloyd Webber musical. It is one of my favourite stage shows as I think the music is funky and the dancing is awesome and I only wish that I had stuck in at dancing cause that would have been my dream job. I consider myself a bit of a Jenny Anydots. I do everything but the thing I set out to do, ever the procrastinator!





So, since the last time I blogged (which seems a lifetime ago now) there have been a few things cropped up in my life. As I said in my last blog I was going to open a new blog to let you all know what it was and I clearly haven't done that I'll just start here and now.
As you may know, I have been diagnosed with Renal Failure twice now in my 26 years I've been alive. I've had two kidney transplants and I currently have no kidney's at all.
I am finding it a little harder to deal with this time through. I suppose it's because the first time it happens, you are just learning about it all and you get by because you have to, second time through you are wiser and have learned so know what to do and when to do it so you deal with it and handle it differently but third time around I have to admit I did have to check that it was all happening again. I couldn't believe it. Why? Why again? Once, twice...I can handle but a third time? That just takes the biscuit.
Something that I am going through this time is the type of Dialysis treatment I am currently getting. Hemodialysis is a completely different style of treatment however it does the same job as regular Dialysis by cleaning the blood through a machine. It cleans out the toxins in my body that a Kidney would normally take care of.
I attend Stobhill Renal Unit 3 times a week for 4 hours at a time to be attached to the machine in order for it to clean my blood for me. Yes, its the biggest pain in the neck ever and I am getting very fed up with it all now however I do need to remind myself that this machine is keeping me alive and there is nothing I can do until I get another Kidney and no one knows how long it will be before that happens.

I'm not entirely sure why I wanted to post this but hey, its out there now....


Watching: Cats
Feeling: Tired and Grumpy and Thirsty
Wanting: A drink