Jenny Anydots

Currently I am watching 'Cats' - The Andrew Lloyd Webber musical. It is one of my favourite stage shows as I think the music is funky and the dancing is awesome and I only wish that I had stuck in at dancing cause that would have been my dream job. I consider myself a bit of a Jenny Anydots. I do everything but the thing I set out to do, ever the procrastinator!





So, since the last time I blogged (which seems a lifetime ago now) there have been a few things cropped up in my life. As I said in my last blog I was going to open a new blog to let you all know what it was and I clearly haven't done that I'll just start here and now.
As you may know, I have been diagnosed with Renal Failure twice now in my 26 years I've been alive. I've had two kidney transplants and I currently have no kidney's at all.
I am finding it a little harder to deal with this time through. I suppose it's because the first time it happens, you are just learning about it all and you get by because you have to, second time through you are wiser and have learned so know what to do and when to do it so you deal with it and handle it differently but third time around I have to admit I did have to check that it was all happening again. I couldn't believe it. Why? Why again? Once, twice...I can handle but a third time? That just takes the biscuit.
Something that I am going through this time is the type of Dialysis treatment I am currently getting. Hemodialysis is a completely different style of treatment however it does the same job as regular Dialysis by cleaning the blood through a machine. It cleans out the toxins in my body that a Kidney would normally take care of.
I attend Stobhill Renal Unit 3 times a week for 4 hours at a time to be attached to the machine in order for it to clean my blood for me. Yes, its the biggest pain in the neck ever and I am getting very fed up with it all now however I do need to remind myself that this machine is keeping me alive and there is nothing I can do until I get another Kidney and no one knows how long it will be before that happens.

I'm not entirely sure why I wanted to post this but hey, its out there now....


Watching: Cats
Feeling: Tired and Grumpy and Thirsty
Wanting: A drink

Educating Rita

So, Im sitting (or should I say lying) here on my bed, watching 'The Mummy', chatting to friends on msn and on facebook (which is shockingly bad right now) about blogging and how blogs can inspire, heal, enlighten and humour someone. We spoke about what kind of blogs there are and how different people use different tools to start their blog posts ie knitting, photography, technology, religion etc and we agreed that blog's can sometimes get too personal. That sometimes a blog is not the place to be revealing every single thing that is going on in your life right now because lets face it, who wants to know that you've just bought the latest in control pants now eh?
As far as my own blog is concerned, I do not blog often as I do struggle to talk about things out loud and I do struggle with the fact that if I start to talk then I can't stop and I worry that I do get too personal with what I write however, I am going to be starting a new blog within the next few months for a very personal reason and you will get to see why that is when I start (if that all makes abundant sense?) as there has been a very big change in my life recently and its going to take me on a journey that I have travelled before and am not looking forward to travelling there again, so I'm going to blog.
It will get personal, it will be uncomfortable to read at times because it will be honest and it is up to you whether you want to follow it or not however I will say one thing about it, it will be educating....