Shine ((part 1))

I don't wanna be adored
Don't wanna be first in line
Or make myself heard
I'd like to bring a little light
To shine a light on your life
To make you feel loved
No, don't wanna be the only one you know
I wanna be the place you call home
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
I give much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Will you see me in the end
Or is it just a waste of time
Trying to be your friend
Just shine, shine, shine
Shine a little light
Shine a light on my life
Warm me up again
Fool, I wonder if you know yourself at all
You know that it could be so simple
I lay myself down
To make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for
Say a word or two to brighten my day
Do you think that you could see your way
To lay yourself down
And make it so, but you don't want to know
You take much more
Than I'd ever ask for

For Callum

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Ever Thine, Ever Mine, Ever Ours

Ok, so a few things have cleared themselves up, mainly due to me ignoring them and them going away ha but I just wanted to share my views on the Sex and the City movie.
I personally wasn't all that fussed about seeing it at first because I hadn't really gotten into the tv series due to other Wednesday evening commitments but I went along to see it, not really expecting anything overly spectacular or for anything to jump out at me...silly me!
I cried through the entire first half. Seriously. I have an idea why and for me, the entire first half was kind of the way I was feeling at that time. Now, here is where I come dangerously close to saying things I dont want to but lets just say that the way Carrie felt at her "Big" mess up (for those who haven't seen it yet) was how I was feeling at the time but seeing her friends rally round her the way they did made me realise that my friends would do the exact thing for me and have done, so really, this is a big thanks to them and as for the movie, I'd go see it again cause I missed the first half due to crying.

"Life doesn't always turn out to be your fantasy, thats why you need friendships that are real to get you through it all."

peas
xoxo

quick update

hmm so I really want to blog something right now but I have so many thoughts in my head that it's virtually impossible for me to go through my brain and decide what I want to blog about and what is appropriate too. Lots to do with my private life and lots to do with my everyday normal life and sorting through that is just the beginning so I think the best thing to do just now is to ask for prayers or whatever you do cause until my head gets sorted, I can't blog.

Update:
Exams are over. Almost stress free.
I am taking a day off tomorrow, an actual day off. I'm going to play the wii for most of the day then at night watch "I'd do anything." and "Dr Who" both of which I haven't seen for weeks and weeks.
Im loving "The Big Bang Theory" right now, very funny.
I went Go-Karting today, so much fun but I have a sore back now, not fun.
Have a look at my slideshow, there's some pretty funky pictures in there.
I have a crazy bunch of new friends, its unreal! Love it!


peas
xx

A few thoughts...

I probably won't have a chance to write anything here for a while since I was so kindly reminded today by Fraser, my maths teacher, that its now four short weeks till my final exams. So here's a few thoughts to keep you all busy over the next few weeks.
Yup, four weeks and its all over. Scary thought eh? Thats what has been going through my mind for the past couple of weeks whilst I was on holiday, a well earned and much appreciated holiday at that, and yes, it does scare me. It scares me that in just four weeks, I will have done my best to get the results I need to go to Uni in September, or not done well enough and I have to go back and try again.

Another thing that's scaring me right now is that I took over the singing company (junior choir) at the Army in January for a trial period (supposed to be lasting a month), and suddenly I have little people to be responsible for. Like having my own little people family to watch over, encourage and in some cases, learn from.
It scares me that I might not be the best for them or what they need right now or that my studies are going to take over and I'm going to lose that connection with them that I got back in January when I first started. It scares me that these kids are now watching every little thing I do and may or may not copy what I do, repeat what I say or act how I act and I'm not sure if I'm ready for that yet.

If you didn't already know by now, our Officer (minister) Chris was taken into hospital a while ago and was diagnosed with having a mini stroke. Now this came as a complete and utter surprise to every single one of us. How can a man his age and with his energy have a mini stroke?
And yet, every time I ask how he is, he tells me he has nothing to complain about. What a guy?!
He gave his testimony during the meeting on Sunday night (as he's still not allowed to work properly) and he was clearly meant to say something that night, either to help me or someone else, I don't know, but he read the words of the song "I'm in His hands."
This song has become one of a surprise favourite of mine over the past couple of years since it was sung at Music School by someone.

I'm in His hands
I'm in His hands
Whatever the future holds
I'm in His hands.
The days I cannot see
Have all been planned for me
His way is best, you see,
I'm in His hands.

Enough said, I think.